Something New

I never much thought of what it must be like to be the one in charge. A leader, sure, all you do is show the way, but being in charge, well...let me put it in terms that I, myself, would understand...it's like trying on different styles of clothes at once and then trying to adopt the personality to wear them. Oh yea.
At any rate, it is different. I see more now. I know more, I feel more. Yep. I said I 'feel' more. I want to be a person people respect, I want to continue being friends with those that used to be my co-workers, and yet i want to be able to do my job to the best of my ability and continue to have keep those friends afterwards. I have to admit...it's kind of hard!
Every little look, every whisper, every turn away from me causes me to take pause, 'are they hating me'? Now I know more about the business than I ever did before, I know how well we do, and how well we don't. And because they are my friends, I push, and I take, and I strive to do the best I can, despite my worries of not being the cool one anymore. Because now, not only do I have to work to keep their trust and the gifts of their friendship, I also have to push them as I do myself, so I know that they'll get to 'eat' in the future. And I can't make excuses for that.
Yea, It's a whole lot different to be In charge.